tension makes a tangle

tension was so thick in ils this morning it felt like being in the haight watching the fog ascend. not really sure what was happening nor did i bother to ask anyone. there was just a lot of silence and no sammy teacher until after lunch. we have yet another new school attending for 5 classes everyday. i now have classes from 10 to lunch time and then two after that. i think this is why sammy teacher is mad. my feeling is that this is what we're here for. yeah for two months is was nice having nothing to do in the morning except plan for classes but even that was getting kind of dull. at least this when the day goes by much faster.

i'm about to kill my orange b class. i can't get them to do their homework. i had to spend 15 mins. at the beginning of class telling them how important it is to do it. they just don't care. the biggest excuse they give me is "i was tired". i collected journals today. a vast majority turned however only two of them wrote every day. well they best get use to writing because they are doing this for the rest of the year. the little devil in my orange a class was actually very well behaved today. a lot of that had to do with the fact that i moved his partner in crime to horace's class. he's teaching a higher level and i felt that he should be in that class because he was looking a bit bored. hence his goofing off. i'm not sure who's placing these kids but someone's a bit off.

i got a package from my mom today. she wanted to be sure i got my christmas present on time. its not even thanksgiving and i've got christmas presents. yeah!! i haven't even opened the box yet because i wanted to make sure that the gifts were wrapped. i just got off the phone with my mom. they are. guess what i'm doing tonight. openning the box of goodies sinces there are other things besides the gifts. getting boxes of stuff is fun.

earlier today i was talking to jk about a holiday party. we were trying to find out if (a.) we were having on (b.) when would it be and (c.) are we doing a gift swap. i still don't really know what were doing. he has to check with princess. during this conversation he asked if we were leaving the country for christmas. i told him we were going to thailand. then he ask if i was going to the united states after korea. he took me a second to figure out what he was getting at. basically he was wondering if i'm going to return to the u.s. after my contract is done. i told him it depended on what was offered to me and also that i haven't really thought much about it. afterall i'm only two months into this contract. it got me thinking about it. at this point i'm not really sure what i plan to do. of course there are days where i just to get out of here then there are the times when is so peaceful and relaxing and i'm really enjoying myself. i've got a while until i make any final decisions. until then i'll keep riding the see saw.