deery-lou.
life has a funny way of throwing you curves. just as i've started to put the whole ordeal with the "x-bf" behind me he sent me a text last night.
hey sorry about not getting back to u sooner. was out of town for awhile. if u wanna catch up for your stuff and a chat let me know. sorry i took longer then i said. i understand if its to late but i'd still love to talk to you.
which of course brought back all these emotions. i had just gotten off the phone earlier with a friend where i told her i was over. honestly i never really expected to hear back from him. there's a big part of me that just wants to blow it off and continue with the way my life is going. and then there's the part that needs closure. needs to hear what he has to say. the whole "being away" excuse is simply that—an excuse. and a weak one at that. it's at these times that i miss being home the most. not having my closest friends nearby to talk about it. misty and i use to spend many evenings eating ice cream, pie, etc. talking about our boy problems while bad tv played in the background. god, how i miss that. thankfully i caught misty online before she had to work. it wasn't the same but at least it was something. i feel alot better having spoken to her and now know what i need to do. i've decided to go ahead and meet him. although as of this post i have yet to send him a text telling him so. i'm struggling with the words. there's alot i need to say to him and i believe that having a face to face will give me that opportunity. plus i'm curious as to what he has to say. i'm hoping that after we talk i'll finally be able to put it all behind him and move on. i'll be sure to let you know how it all turns out. boys suck! wish me luck.
stay gold & be well…
2 comments:
Oh Ethan, that is never easy. In fact it is one of the hardest things. Stay strong and if need be let your emotions out after you have seen him. I think meeting with him is smart, if only for closure. You are loved by many friends and we are here for you even if we are half a planet away. LR
I don't know much about boys but relationships are just a lot of work and mind stuff which hurts. Hang in there E. There is a fantastic boy around the corner. The moon, stars, sun, and whatever else need to be aligned but they will someday...I know it. You are way too much of a jem! Miss you.
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