rhiannon

deery-lou.
previously on the e-list…

i wasn't able to speak at my mom's remembrance ceremony, so instead i wrote something and posted on the photo board i made. i thought i'd share it here as well.

I’m not sure where to even begin. This has got to be the hardest thing that I’ve ever tried to write. I can’t seem to find the right words to capture your essence. There is so much I still need to say, so I’ve decided to write it down hoping you’ll be able to hear it. I never imagined that I would have to sit and write something like this so early on. My thoughts are all jumbled but I will do the best that I can.

You were an amazing mother in so many ways. And although I often kept my distance, I wanted you to know just how much you meant not only to me, but also to Zoe, Dad, and every one else who’s life you touched. I’m not sure you really knew how much you’ve influenced my life, helping me to become the person I am now.

Just as I felt I was making progress in opening up, you were taken away. I wish I had the opportunity to have spoken to you one last time. I will cherish the last conversation we had since you sounded so happy. There are so many things I still needed to share to with you. So many things I still wanted you to hear. Although I know I can still talk to you, it’s not the same as you being here.

You were filled with such compassion and kindness. But most of all, filled with understanding. You never judged us and always accepted us for who we were. You simply allowed us to travel down the path we needed to, offering us support and guidance when we needed it. For that, I’m most thankful.

I always knew that no matter where I was, you’d always be there for me. I will definitely miss the stories you shared and will cherish them forever as I play them over and over in my mind. I can only hope that you felt fulfilled in your life. Please know that you were a wonderful mother and a beloved wife. Wherever you are, I hope that you have found peace and happiness. I know in my heart you’ll always be around looking over us.

I want you to know that we will be okay, so please don’t worry. We are strong because of you and will get through this. And not a day will pass when I won’t celebrate the person you were. I miss you so much and love you deeply.
xoxo

just where will i end up next is anyone's guess.
stay gold & be well…